20

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

20??

doploh??

twenny??

عشرون؟؟

haaaa..amekkau nk bahasa apa lagi??haha

okayy..yesterday,13th july 2014,

I'm officially a twenty years old lady..

*haha bcoz a GIRL is too mainstream

well,

of course,

Subhanallah,Alhamdulillah,Allahuakbar..

bersyukur sangat aku diberi kesempatan utk menghirup udara di muka bumi Allah ni sepanjang 20 tahun..

even today,I'm still breathing da same air..

Alhamdulillah..

tapi..

aku tak lupa..

dis also means that aku selangkah mendekati usia kematian..

well,maut tak mengenal usia kan?

of course I hope to be here longer as theres still lots of things that I wanna discover..

insyaAllah..aamiin

blessed to hav lots of great wishes from my family,besties,classmates,oldfriends,collegues in da varsity societies,friends all over da world hahah..

and not to mention..

YOU ;)

muchos gracias for da wishes..may Allah grants it,insyaAllah..

I'm presenting you,, CikDiey <3

and these are wasep's wishes ;)

there's lots of them..but it's impossible for me to show it all..haha

 and now,,from my EIFJAN <3

1st of EIFJAN,Jaja ;) seyes it's my fav pic!

Then Erma ;) oh seyes xtahan gelak tgk gambo zaman dolu2 ni..haha

Then Ikanur ;) nampak aa kependekan di situ..haha

Then Nana..agak lewat cz upload fail..bhahaha

Last but not least..Adah..ku pikir adah lupaaaa..ghupanya nk jadi yg last..adoiii XD

and not forgotten,wishes from FB of course..

muchos gracias..really appreciate da du'aa..

but then,when I'm scrolling da wishes,

perasan gak,banyak yg suruh ai kahweng toing3..

ahaha sorry to dissappoint u..

M not going to get married next year or any sooner..

lots of thingy come up..hew3

but please pray for me..huhuhu

ohmyy..

dunno what to say ekceli~

20 oledyy bhahaha

seyesly said for da past couple years,to be specific,da years I left my nest,

had thought me a lot..had changed me a lot..

sampai tak sedar yang aku dah berubah bit by bit..

sampailahh my bestie tegur..

"do you know how we miss da old u??"

oppsss..is it THAT obvious??

why n how did I changed??toing3

just now I've read a blog..

she said that being 20 means da sesuai nk kawen..

n she said that 1 thing yg buat being org dewasa ni best-->kawen..

haha aku cuma tersenyum..

yeahh..memang kawen tu kind of something yang ditunggu2 kan?

but then,

seyesly it is more than a marriage..

lots of ups n downs..

willing to go thru it??

go on then..

kawen muda is not as easy as it seems to be..

memang..

memang ramai yg dh berjaya go thru it..

n ada sebahagian orang yg siap publicize their lovestory..

thru talks,books,video..

naaaahhh~~all da nice thing..

and then all of us like

"awww!!so suweettt!!"

oh stop it!!wake up!!

stop living in fantasies 

*slappingcheeks

haha gaya cakap macam dah kawen je kan??

well,i am not..

but those yg dah kawen told me dis..

keeps telling me to finish my studies..

*tho i planned to pursue till PhD insyaAllah..xkan la lps tuu baru nk kawen kowt??

keeps telling me how hard da commitments are..

keeps scaring me wif all those spooky things bout marriage..

eeiii kang aku tak kawen betul2 baru tau..toing3

and on the other side,

those yg sokong kawen awal plok..

keeps telling me kawen awal ni best..

keeps telling me to cepat2 kan kawen..

keeps putting me on da clouds..

keeps showering me wif all da kebaikan kawen awal..

maigahh!!

1 thing jea..

even if I want to,,but my parents opposed it,

tak jalan jugak..

theres no other way but to wait for at least another 2 years..

take it or leave it..

haha semudah bicara kata2 kan??

*smirk

btw,macam terlampau overgedik jiddan3 kowt nak kawen at 20!!!ohmyy~

haha kalo fikir yg best semata,itu gedik..

but then..ekceli it is not just that..

lots of reasons..untold reasons..sighh

sorry..

sorry to break your heart..

ahah like sorry seems to unbreak da broken heart kan?uhuk3

We're scared..

We're in doubt..

whether we could be strong or not..

but just recall back what u've said..

"rasa takut jangan hanya disimpan sbg perasaan..tp luahkanlah kpd empunya perasaan tuu"

"andaikata Allah dh tetapkan jalan kita susah,terus doa supaya kte diberi kekuatan n kesabaran"

-doc-

so..be strong..

and pray..

well,don't u know that theres lots of people who wanna see us together??

they did pray for us insyaAllah..

so,what's da reason to turn down our heads then??

chin up and smile..

alahh~2 years je kan??kut..?

errr~~though me too..is scared..toing3

semoga kuat..

wallahua'lam..