Red Lollipop ~~My CoLourFuL HaPpiNeSs~~ : July 2014

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Suatu Perkara Bernama PRINSIP

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Alhamdulillah..hari ni genap 22 hari kita berpuasa..
which means,we hav another 7 days of Ramadhan!!
Subhanallah..cepatnya masa berlalu..
huhu
selagi ada masa,let's do our best..
semoga ada rezeki kita untuk bertemu lailatul qadr..insyaAllah..aamiin

"umpama di dalam dulang yang punya 6 biji cawan,salah satunya berisi air tawar..bagaimana kita minum??sudah tentu dgn tertib,beradab,dimulai dengan selawat dan sebagainya..begitulah juga dengan bulan Ramadhan..yang merupakan 1 bulan istimewa drp 12 bulan..of course we have to give it special treats.." ;)
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Entry kali ni,nak coret tentang PRINSIP..

One little thing called PRINCIPLE..

Prinsip,pegangan,panduan hidup,atau apa sahaja nama yang diberi..
yang mana selagi kita berpegang pada prinsip itu,insyaAllah kita dapat letakkan diri kita di landasan yang betul..
selagi kita berpegang padanya,kita tak akan terpesong..

"Dan berpegang teguhlah kamu semuanya pada tali (agama) Allah,dan janganlah kamu berpecah-belah,dan ingatlah nikmat Allah kepadamu ketika kamu dahulu (pada masa jahiliah) bermusuhan,lalu Allah menyatukan hati-hati kamu,sehingga dengan kurniaNya kamu menjadi bersaudara,sedangkan (ketika itu) kamu berada di tepi jurang neraka,lalu Allah menyelamatkan kamu dari sana.Demikianlah,Allah menerangkan ayat-ayatNya kepada kamu agar kamu mendapat petunjuk."
(QS Ali Imran ayat 103)

alkisahnya,I nearly lost my grip to my little principle..
which nearly made me fall into fatal condition..
yeah fatal majazy..not haqiqi..hehe
coz this thingy is involving my soul..
JIWA..
IMAN..

nak tau apa prinsip yang satu tu??

"I WON'T FALL IN LOVE UNTIL I GET MARRIED"

haha..seems easy,right??
that's why I called it little thingy..
nevertheless,it is obviously not that easy..
once U get involved with people..
or to be specific,special person..
U tend to fall..
which I don't want to..

but then,
kalo dibayang 'fall in love' thingy ni sbg sebuah jurang,
aku dah berdiri di tepi jurang dah,menunggu masa untuk terjatuh..
Alhamdulillah..
there's one hand that pulled me back..
again,it's majazy..not haqiqi..toing3
thanks to the helpful hand..
which makes me tighten da grip to da principle..

what is actually da helpful hand?

QUESTIONS

yeah,questions..
entahlah..mungkin Allah masih mahu selamatkan aku..
Dia sayang pada aku..
Dia tak mahu aku terjatuh..
so,Dia datangkan hamba-hambaNya untuk bertanyakan soalan pada aku..
where the questions keep waking me up..
to not losing my grip..

setiap kali aku hampir terjatuh,
dan mungkin kekadang sengaja nak menjatuhkan diri,
dek keadaan yang sedikit menekan,
these questions keep holding me back..

"why do you want to get married?"
"do you love him?"
"why did you choose him?"
"rasa nak kenal laa dia ni sape sampai mu nak kawen ngan dia.."

and without any practise or what not,my answer be like---

"no I don't..sape nak kawen muda2??rugi je masa muda..tapi kalo dah tiba masanya nak buat cemana"
"haha..ekceli I don't love him..no I don't.."
"I don't even know why I choose him..coz I don't even know him that much.."
"just selesa being with him"

okay ekceli 'choose' is not da right word..
I did not choose him..he just came into my life..
and I'm very sure you readers are saying me being in denial state..
keeps denying though I actually do love him..
kan?
sebab sebelum ni dah ada yg said that to me..huhu

close enough..
tapi tak..insyaAllah tak..
not till da time comes..
I know my heart..
thanks to da questions..
really2 appreciate it..
coz it wakes me up..
chonmal..tak tipu..

Nevertheless,,
I know..
I have to bear da feeling of losing my grips for such a long time..
which makes me kind of scared..
aku takut aku tak sekuat itu...
kerana aku cuma punya iman senipis kulit bawang,yang bisa tercarik bila2 masa je..
doakan aku kuat..
please..
huhuhu

"InsyaAllah..tak perlu takut..ini semua urusan Allah..selagi berpegang pada prinsip,insyaAllah takkan kecewa..jangan takut"
-doc-


cuma tak sangka akan ada soalan2 maut dari that person himself..
perghh seyes sangat menguji..
bikin me ternganga tak tau nk jawab cemana..
hampir terperangkap..
once again my principle made me able to stand strong..
Alhamdulillah..

kind of lawak ekceli..
this thingy made me realised that I'm being more matured..
in da way I'm thinking..
in da way I handle situations..
tapi tak bermakna aku makin tua yooo..haha
yg ni no doubt being denial..hak3

chonmal..
to those yang belum involve in this thingy,
I'm glad u are..
jangan cari..please jangan..
selagi belum tiba masanya..
sebab..
it is hard..seriously it's hard..
nampak macam best je nak move on to da next stage kan?
reality is,
letih otak,letih jiwa,letih perasaan..
though aku tak cari pun this thingy..huhu

kuatkan pegangan pada prinsip,agama Allah..jangan lepaskan..
don't even think to loosen da grip..
don't...

wallahua'lam..








Monday, July 14, 2014

20

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

20??
doploh??
twenny??
عشرون؟؟

haaaa..amekkau nk bahasa apa lagi??haha

okayy..yesterday,13th july 2014,
I'm officially a twenty years old lady..
*haha bcoz a GIRL is too mainstream

well,
of course,
Subhanallah,Alhamdulillah,Allahuakbar..
bersyukur sangat aku diberi kesempatan utk menghirup udara di muka bumi Allah ni sepanjang 20 tahun..
even today,I'm still breathing da same air..
Alhamdulillah..

tapi..
aku tak lupa..
dis also means that aku selangkah mendekati usia kematian..
well,maut tak mengenal usia kan?
of course I hope to be here longer as theres still lots of things that I wanna discover..
insyaAllah..aamiin

blessed to hav lots of great wishes from my family,besties,classmates,oldfriends,collegues in da varsity societies,friends all over da world hahah..
and not to mention..
YOU ;)

muchos gracias for da wishes..may Allah grants it,insyaAllah..

I'm presenting you,, CikDiey <3

and these are wasep's wishes ;)

there's lots of them..but it's impossible for me to show it all..haha
 and now,,from my EIFJAN <3

1st of EIFJAN,Jaja ;) seyes it's my fav pic!


Then Erma ;) oh seyes xtahan gelak tgk gambo zaman dolu2 ni..haha


Then Ikanur ;) nampak aa kependekan di situ..haha

Then Nana..agak lewat cz upload fail..bhahaha

Last but not least..Adah..ku pikir adah lupaaaa..ghupanya nk jadi yg last..adoiii XD

and not forgotten,wishes from FB of course..
muchos gracias..really appreciate da du'aa..

but then,when I'm scrolling da wishes,
perasan gak,banyak yg suruh ai kahweng toing3..
ahaha sorry to dissappoint u..
M not going to get married next year or any sooner..
lots of thingy come up..hew3
but please pray for me..huhuhu

ohmyy..
dunno what to say ekceli~
20 oledyy bhahaha
seyesly said for da past couple years,to be specific,da years I left my nest,
had thought me a lot..had changed me a lot..
sampai tak sedar yang aku dah berubah bit by bit..
sampailahh my bestie tegur..

"do you know how we miss da old u??"

oppsss..is it THAT obvious??
why n how did I changed??toing3

just now I've read a blog..
she said that being 20 means da sesuai nk kawen..
n she said that 1 thing yg buat being org dewasa ni best-->kawen..
haha aku cuma tersenyum..

yeahh..memang kawen tu kind of something yang ditunggu2 kan?
but then,
seyesly it is more than a marriage..
lots of ups n downs..
willing to go thru it??
go on then..

kawen muda is not as easy as it seems to be..
memang..
memang ramai yg dh berjaya go thru it..
n ada sebahagian orang yg siap publicize their lovestory..
thru talks,books,video..
naaaahhh~~all da nice thing..
and then all of us like
"awww!!so suweettt!!"
oh stop it!!wake up!!
stop living in fantasies 
*slappingcheeks

haha gaya cakap macam dah kawen je kan??
well,i am not..
but those yg dah kawen told me dis..
keeps telling me to finish my studies..
*tho i planned to pursue till PhD insyaAllah..xkan la lps tuu baru nk kawen kowt??
keeps telling me how hard da commitments are..
keeps scaring me wif all those spooky things bout marriage..
eeiii kang aku tak kawen betul2 baru tau..toing3

and on the other side,
those yg sokong kawen awal plok..
keeps telling me kawen awal ni best..
keeps telling me to cepat2 kan kawen..
keeps putting me on da clouds..
keeps showering me wif all da kebaikan kawen awal..
maigahh!!

1 thing jea..
even if I want to,,but my parents opposed it,
tak jalan jugak..
theres no other way but to wait for at least another 2 years..
take it or leave it..
haha semudah bicara kata2 kan??
*smirk
btw,macam terlampau overgedik jiddan3 kowt nak kawen at 20!!!ohmyy~
haha kalo fikir yg best semata,itu gedik..
but then..ekceli it is not just that..
lots of reasons..untold reasons..sighh

sorry..
sorry to break your heart..
ahah like sorry seems to unbreak da broken heart kan?uhuk3
We're scared..
We're in doubt..
whether we could be strong or not..
but just recall back what u've said..

"rasa takut jangan hanya disimpan sbg perasaan..tp luahkanlah kpd empunya perasaan tuu"
"andaikata Allah dh tetapkan jalan kita susah,terus doa supaya kte diberi kekuatan n kesabaran"
-doc-

so..be strong..
and pray..
well,don't u know that theres lots of people who wanna see us together??
they did pray for us insyaAllah..
so,what's da reason to turn down our heads then??
chin up and smile..
alahh~2 years je kan??kut..?
errr~~though me too..is scared..toing3

semoga kuat..

wallahua'lam..



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